As I'm ending my third year in college, I’m reflecting on how I can make the most of my last year in college. This year has been rough in many aspects, especially my motivation. I really want to do something about it because I care about my output and my own well being.
I have ADHD and It affects a lot of my daily life. My biggest issue is transitioning from one task to another. I freeze up knowing I have to start another task because of how overwhelming it feels, and I have to settle myself and think rationally. After that, it doesn't feel as daunting. Regardless, I still need to function lol. I was thinking about the concept of self discipline and how I could be better at it.
Just today I bought myself a weekly planner! I'm excited to use it and want to make it cute and colorful so I want to look at it. Writing by hand does help me so I hope this is a good start. I like that it has the week on the left and free space on the right. Monthly planners suck because sometimes I don't know where I want to schedule something so I don’t write it.
Another thing I did for myself is delete instagram off my phone. That was a huge thing. I never really did it because I was scared of missing stuff out or not being able to message certain people. But, I turned on notifications for certain accounts for events in my area and deleted it. Of course I can redownload it whenever, but the fact I can't impulsively open instagram immediately when I turn on my phone is gonna be really good for me. Because of ADHD I feel more prone to chase that dopamine that instagram reels give me. It’s hella annoying…
Now, I think what I need to focus on is changing my mindset. I’ve become pretty negative in general and it's sad. So much is happening in this word that makes me understandably a hater, but that’s not how I want to live my life. I hope I can be better and enjoy simple tasks like washing my dishes or cleaning my room. Im taking care of myself and rewarding my future self. Shouldn't that be something to celebrate and love? At the end of the day I have to do it so why not enjoy it? I need to be better and be patient with myself and give myself grace.
Journaling might help ground myself and keep myself accountable in that mindset. I forget to journal but hopefully through boredom and more free time off my phone I will journal more and reaffirm my beliefs.
And you can too!! Maybe we aren't on the same page but I hope this inspires someone to try some methods I am discovering too. Do you have any suggestions for motivation and discipline?